Angels Are Watching Over Me!

It was 6:15 am last Thursday. I woke up early and was getting ready to do my Pilate's video. The boys and I had put Brad on a plane to China 24 hours earlier. Brad and I had known for about 10 days that we were expecting another baby! We were excited, but guarded (I miscarried twins in August) about the thought of adding to our family! I walked into the front room to put the video in, when I began to cramp a little. So I sat down on the couch thinking that the cramp would pass...it didn't! The cramp escalated until I felt nauseous, my ears started ringing, and when I started to black out I knew that I had to make it to the phone to call for help. Through powers beyond my own, I made it. I called 911. I was able to calmly give them my address and tell them a portion of what was going on and then I blacked out. When I came too I heard the voice on the other end of the line calling for me to answer. I don't remember what I said after I came too, but he said that the ambulance was on the way and that he was going to hang up. I didn't want him too. I was scared and I didn't want to feel alone. I needed someone to be with me. I was in so much pain! Through another heavenly guided intervention, Nicole, my next door neighbor's number came to me and I was able to call them for help. She made it over to the house, I opened the front door. All I remember after that was sitting on the couch, Nicole's hand was on my back. That warm gentle pressure of her hand saved me from passing out again... The power of human touch! My body was in convulsions at that point because of the pain. The paramedics arrived, they put me on the stretcher and carried me out to the ambulance. My boys didn't know any of this was going on. They were still asleep. Thank goodness! I cannot imaging the trauma of seeing your Mom taken away in an ambulance and of not knowing what would happen to her... Another heavenly blessing!
I made two calls from my cell phone on the way to the hospital. Both of the numbers I dialed, but I was in too much pain to talk. The paramedics talked to Brad, in China first, to let him know what was going on, and then my sister in law, Jenny so she could meet me at the hospital. After those calls were made I remember them starting an IV, and telling me that usually they would take an OB case into Salt Lake, but my condition was too unstable to make it that far. After that, I have no recollection of the rest of the ride.
In the ER the nurse put a second IV into my other arm. When I asked her "why two?", she told me that my condition could become critical! I was so scared. I told them to do anything that needed to be done, just make me better! 100% Better! All that was important to me was to be with Brad again and be a mother to my boys! My family is my life and my love and I just wanted everything back the way it was before.
I am not sure when ,in all of the chaos that surrounded me, that Jenny arrived in the ER, but she seemed to make everything better! An angel! Again...The power of touch saved me! Her hand did not leave me. My arm, my leg, it didn't matter where...her touch was always there. It comforted me and brought me peace in such a scary time!
After an ultrasound it was determined that I had a seven week fetus attached to my left tube (FYI that is not where it should be). The severe pain I felt at home happened because my tube ruptured and I was bleeding internally. I would need to go into surgery ASAP!
I knew before I went into surgery I wanted a priesthood blessing. Once again, angels came to administer to me, my brother, Drew and Nicole's husband, Wade. I also think that my Dad was there in spirit, with me every step of the way that day! I was filled with peace after the blessing and I knew everything would be OK.
When I came out of surgery I found out that I lost another pregnancy(you can never save a tubal pregnancy, but the pain of longing of a baby was still there!), my left tube was gone, and I had lost masses of blood. I was in a tremendous amount of pain, and the world around me was spinning. Did this really happen to me???
As I sit here reflecting tonight about the events of the last week... four blood transfusions, three incisions in my abdomen, two days in the hospital, and a terribly painful recovery.
I truly am just grateful to be alive!!
Angels are watching over me!
PS I could not have made it through this week with out my Mom! She took over and picked up all the pieces! She took care of my boys, my home, and she did everything in her power to help me heal! I am so blessed that she is in my life!
Thank you to my family, friends, and neighbors for all of your love, concern, and support. You all have blessed my life! You are loved and so appreciated!